"Grown-up" by Kanzaki Iori | Song Fan Translation

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"Grown-Up"(Adult) (大人/Otona) by Kanzaki Iori
Lyrics/Composition: Kanzaki Iori
Arrangement：Kanzaki Iori / Hanamura Saton


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KANJI Lyrics:
ある朝目覚めると俺は大人になっていた
声も枯れてシワも増えて
目の下にクマが出来ている
少しばかりの筋肉と肩幅も少しついたらしい
部屋の隅に転がる靴下
その隣で異臭を出すゴミ袋


「あの頃は本当にごめん」
そう言ってくれた昔のやつら
あの時裏切ったのはあいつじゃなくて俺だったじゃないか
なのになかったことにして「なあ元気か？」って何言ってんだよ
癒えてない傷に蓋ができるほど俺は大人にはなっちゃいない


俺は偏屈な人間なのに
上司はいつでも飯を奢った
うまそうに飯を食う俺を上司はいつだって可愛がった
恩返しをしたい
そう思う時に限って手遅れだ
恩を売るだけ売り付けて一体何で愛を伝えりゃいい


過ぎ去ったもの全てが許せない
夢よ早く覚めろ


大人になって分かったことなんて単純だ
夏は暑くて冬は寒いこと
妄想だって思ったこの感情の全てに
名前があるということ


死ぬとか生きるとかそんなことより明日の飯どうしよう
感受性なんてもの捨て去って今は今に死に物狂い
休みは一人で風俗行って安い居酒屋で吐くほど飲んで
会社で出来た仲間と下ネタ言い合う一週間


あるとき突然涙が出てきて一歩も前に歩けなくて
誰もが俺を心配して慰めてくれてなんて俺は幸せ者だ
幸せ者だ　だから早く夢から覚めろ


立ち止まる勇気を認めない
自分が心底嫌いだ


大人になって分かったことなんて単純だ
夢は叶うこと努力は報われること
一人は寂しいこと二人は気まずいこと
人間は難しいこと


やっぱりそうだよな
もう二度と子供には戻れないんだ
大人たちが犯罪を起こす理由がやっと分かったよ
苦しくて寂しい夜は誰にだってあるよ


「あの頃は本当にごめん」
そう言ってくれた昔のやつら
あの時裏切ったのはあいつじゃなくて俺だったじゃないか
でも嬉しいよ
だって俺はずっとあいつを気にしてた
大人になるまでずっと
子供のままでずっと
シワが出来るまでずっと　髪が痛むまでずっと
肌が荒れるまでずっと　息が切れるほどずっと
時間が全てを解決するって実際ある話なんだな
俺は大人なんだ　だから言うよ

ごめんなさい　会いたかったよ


大人になって分かったことなんて単純だ
人は醜くて人は優しいこと
心の奥に眠る憎悪が剥がれ落ちても
何も変わらない


大人になって分かったんだ
二度とは戻れないんだ

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ENGLISH (TRANSLATION):

One morning, as I opened my eyes, I had become an adult
My voice had deepened, my wrinkles had multiplied, and eyebags had formed
I gained a bit more muscle, and even my shoulders have widened just a tad
There are socks littered at the corner of my room; the stench of the garbage bag I took out reeks from nearby

Those guys from back then said to me “I’m really sorry for that time,”
That time, wasn’t the one who betrayed not them, but instead me?
And yet they said “Hey, have you been well?" as if nothing had happened before
Even as I grew up to be an adult, nothing can compare to opening these wounds that haven’t healed

Even though I’m a biased human, my boss had still treated me to meals at any time
The me who’d look at chow down on food with hungry eyes— my boss was always charmed by that.
I wanted to give back; but I hesitated, thinking it was too late
How does one impose without expecting a reward; how the hell can one just convey love?

There’s no way I can forgive everything that had passed
Hurry up and wake up from this dream

I understood as I became an adult— that this much should be simple
that summers would be hot, and that winters would be cold
I thought it was just my imagination
To think all these feelings actually had a name for them

Rather than thinking of how I’ll live or how I’ll die, I have to think about tomorrow’s meal
As I throw away all awareness, now more than ever, I’m struggling to survive
Doing the customs one does on their rest day; like going to cheap izakaya’s and drinking ‘till I vomit
A full week of exchanging dirty jokes with the colleagues I have from work

One time, all of a sudden, my tears started to fall and I stopped walking
Comforted by the fact that someone actually worries for me; I must be a lucky person
I’m such a lucky person… That’s why I have to hurry and wake up from this dream

I couldn’t admit to how my nerves stopped stiffened so suddenly
I really hate the "me" deep inside

I understood as I became an adult— that this much should be simple
How dreams are achieved, how hard work is rewarded
How lonely it is to be by yourself, how awkward it is to be with someone else
How hard it is to be a human

It really is just like that
I can never go back to being a child
I finally understand how adults can have reasons to make crimes
Just about anyone can have nights where they feel pained and lonely

Those guys from back then said to me “I’m really sorry for that time,”
That time, wasn’t the one who betrayed not them, but instead me?
But I’m still glad, because all this time, I’ve been thinking about them always
Even as I became an adult, even as I feel like a child
Even as these wrinkles formed, even as my hair becomes damaged
Even as my skin turns rough, even until I stop breathing
Time is the solution for everything; that is the reality of this story
I’ve grown up now, that’s why I just have to say it—

“I’m sorry.”
“I missed you.”

I understood as I became an adult— that this much should be simple
How people can be unsightly; how people can be kind
The hatred that lies within one’s inner heart
Even once it has fallen off, there’s nothing that will change

I’ve understood when I became an adult
There’s no turning back anymore.